maybe it's just autism
still learning new things about myself at almost-40
I’ve talked on this substack and on the internet so much about my perfectionism, and my struggle to know myself, to know what I like or what I want to do. And I’ve made videos recently about my desire to find my unique voice in my art and in my writing, because I feel like I’ve become so good at mimicking what I read and what I see but I don’t know what is uniquely me or how to find that out.
And I feel quite silly, because it feels like it must have been obvious to everyone else, but it turns out, that maybe all these issues are not a bunch of individual things…but are in fact just me being autistic.
sharing from the unmade bed is a publication about the journey to becoming an artist/illustrator while I’m in it, writing from the mess rather than from the tidied up finished story
(formerly easy to love, and a few other names before that, but it’s still just me, Joeli)